During my walk a lot came to my mind. It was a much better experience then the reading material. For me, exercises like the one in the book offered never really did much for me. So the majority of this post will be about the walk. Pain is a very broad thing to explain, but with the subject of pain on my mind one thing that came up was my body. I was a professional ballet dancer for over seven years with the PNB. After many successful years as a dancer, I retired because my body could no longer do what was required due to an injury. My heart, mind and soul were ready for at least another five to seven years of dancing professionally, it was the rest of me that couldn’t keep up.
Ending my ballet career brought about all different kinds of pain. One of the hardest types was the emotional pain of realizing that it was all over. The curtains had closed, and the theater that once didn’t have an empty seat was now quiet and empty. However, since we are talking about the environment I should probably steer back to that.
The park that i went to was a one that I have been going to since I was young, Carkeek park in greenwood. I walked around the forest and listened to the silence. Sometimes I forget what it’s like to be in a place that actually quiet. One thing that stood out for me was how much trash I saw in the park. This was not a problem when I was a child and played in those woods without a care in the world. Or if it was, it was nowhere near what it is today. As I walked further and further in though, the trash started to dissipate, which gave me some hope. It is as if the deeper we go for solutions to help the environment, the more the answers will present themselves.
After my walk in the forest I went back to my apartment, put my phone on record, picked up my guitar and this is what came out. It’s a very rough take but it was how I was feeling. It seems to have downloaded in a strange way to just click on “a walk with my pain reflection.”